This is My World

I don’t believe in first impressions. It’s actually quite judgmental to put someone in some category especially after you’d meet the person only for the first time. While I do believe that first impressions can and do make a difference (up to a certain point only), I don’t make it as my sole basis of determining the character or personality of a person.

According to Jane, most people (well I’d like to believe only a few of them) see me as unapproachable at first glance. I learned about this only a couple of days ago...which I can’t fully comprehend until now. It's just too vague for me to understand how this could possibly be so. Jane says the problem could be that I may look intimidating especially to those who don’t know me well enough. As to how or why I look intimidating and unapproachable, I absolutely have no idea. I actually can’t see how or why this could be. I mean my teeth are already hurting from smiling too much. My pride has hit rock bottom already from making a fool out of myself in trying to befriend and catch the attention of whoever’s in front of me. Well technically it’s whoever crosses my path. If these aren’t still enough, then I don’t know what is. I really go out of my way to talk to people. Well not all the time, but I try to as much as I can. Sometimes I also have to see and feel how the other person is reacting right…if you know what I mean. I know I can be a bit timid and quiet at times. But that’s not enough reason for people to mistake it for some other thing. Being quiet doesn’t spell I-N-T-M-I-D-A-T-I-N-G. That’s entirely two different things. As I’ve said, I’m no Wonder Woman who’s always in high energy-high spirits all the time. I can’t be the ‘friend ng bayan’ because I’m not. I can’t be 100% jolly and super friendly all the time because I’m not that either. As Darius Rucker sings it, “This is my world, this is who I am. And I’m not trying to give up myself to make your life better, now. This is how it is, I got my own life to live. And you can either accept me or let me go.”